Ever since he has been alive, there are so any things that have happened that I didn't expect. Here are a few that stand out.....
1. I didn't expect none of his clothes to fit. I didn't have any "newborn" size clothes....my Mom always told me that they were pointless, so I didn't but any! Opps. All the clothes that I had prepared and washed and laid out and packed for the hospital were all GIGANTIC!!!! Is this a big deal? Not at all....just unexpected.
2. I didn't expect newborn diapers to be completely and totally useless. Toby and I prided ourselves on how prepared we were on diapers. We started a little stock pile of newborn diapers. Every time we went to the store, we grabbed whatever was on sale. In newborn size. These NEVER fit Leo and he wet through them the 1st 2 weeks of his precious life. Is this a big deal? Nope....just unexpected.
3. I didn't expect childbirth to be so darn......easy. It was so easy, in fact, I was a little annoyed! After 4 pushes, my Little Leo was here and I didn't even break a sweat. You mean I was stressin out over that???!?!! You mean I was scared to death to do that?!?!?! You mean I beat myself up and was a nervous wreck over that?!?!?!? Shoot.
4. I didn't expect to be in so much pain AFTER I gave birth. WOWZERS!!! I won't go into detail, cause I know that we do have some men followers (sorry Gary!) , but I wish I could have been a little more prepared for this part. Sitting down was BY FAR that most painful thing I did in the weeks following Leo's arrival. VERY unexpected.
5. I didn't expect to be such a basket case. I could have filled up 2 liter bottles with tears. And that is so not like me. Thank God I have an amazing husband, mom, and dog who all have great shoulders. Also thanks to Dr Hoffman who informed me I was not crazy!
6. I didn't expect Leo to be such an easy baby. I feel like I need to "knock on wood" when I say this, because I'm waiting for him to totally change and make me eat my words. He is amazing! I had mentally prepared myself for the worst...... so many people had filled my mind with horror "just wait" stories and I was ready to tackle sleepless nights, vomiting, endless crying, poop, poop, poop, a messy house, piles and piles of laundry, colic, traveling nightmares, and paniced calls to the doctor. None of the above have happened.........................yet. (Yes... I do know it's still early. Please spare me the "just wait comments")
7. I didn 't expect to watch so much TV. Ugh! I have learned to HATE TV! I have never watched this much TV EVER! I mean, when Leo's sleeping there's not that much else to do. Laundry for 3 people doesn't take that long when you stay on top of it. Dusting and vacuuming the house is not an all-day task either....maybe a 30 min task. It takes maybe 6 minutes to make our bed. My shower/hair/make-up takes about 45 min. Cooking dinner is not something I spend hours on either. So once all the above is done, Leo is just waking up....from his 1st nap. He takes about 5 or 6 naps a day. Im becoming an expert on daytime TV and I hate it. Is this a big deal? of course not. Just unexpected.
8. I didn't expect to fall more in love with my husband. I thought I loved him before. Wow was I wrong. Seeing this amazing man be a father to our son made me fall in love all over again. I didn't think it was possible to love Toby more than I already did.
9. I didn't expect to miss being pregnant. But I did. A lot.
I am sure (no....I am POSITIVE) that there will be more unexpected moments that will take place in the days, months, and years to come. And Im ready for them....or as ready as I think I will be.
"I have grown to love the unexpected... for in it is the miraculous.. here is where we are shown.. events that create our lives to be more enjoyable, more loving, more adventurous than anything we ever could have planned. Why do we think we know.. when we let go..and trust.. the mundane of life becomes the profound... leave your concepts at the door of fate.. open your arms.. today..is a good day" Marlise Karlin
