Its a weird thing.
I've come to realize lately that I have a very addictive personality. Sometimes I think that I inherited that from my parents (mainly my Dad), but then I think that it's me and my own needs and wants.
I'm addicted to things that are not necessarily "bad" for me.... like drugs, alcohol, or porn. I don't think I could handle those addictions. That takes a strong person...... or a weak one.... however you look at it.
Anyway...there are things in my life that I feel like I "need" on a daily basis and if I don't get these things, I am not OK with that.
1. Coffee. Not a lot. Just a cup or two if I've got time. Whether I've got time in the morning to actually drink a cup while its still hot, or not, I HAVE to have a to-go cup in the car. I seriously can't remember that last time I drove to work without my to-go cup of coffee. I guess it helps me to get focused for the day....... or something. All I know is that if I don't get to have it, I feel "off".
2. My phone. I love it and hate it at the exact same time. I hate that my face is sometimes buried in it, but I also love it because there is always so much available at my fingertips. It is never far from me, out of my reach, or left alone for more than 30 min. Kinda like a child. Wow.
3. My calendar. I'm obsessed with it. I look at it numerous times a day. Just to check. And double check. And triple check. What am I checking? Don't really know.... I guess making sure I'm not forgetting anything. I also love to delete events/tasks that I have completed. It kinda thrilling and empowering. Its that little things......
Anyway- I keep my calendar in my phone and sometimes I freak myself out thinking what I would do if my phone were to get stolen, lost, submerged in water, or swallowed. I would not have a clue what to do. I would be lost! The things I have scheduled on my calendar range from appoints to when my favorite band will be in town. I have grocery store trips, jewelry shows, 5k races, reminders of when I need to mail certain stuff out, special events, meetings, deadlines, Its crazy! Its nuts how much I put in my calendar and how it controls my day.
4. Facebook. Cringe. I hate that this is a so-called addiction for me, but it is. Its my newspaper. I read it every morning and night. The first step to recovery is admitting you have a problem, right? I'm not gonna go into details about this because I'm starting to annoy myself and realize how much I focus on stupid things........ but I will just say this.... if an entire day goes by and I haven't had a chance to check my FB, then I feel a little bit of anxiety and panic. I feel like I'm missing something important. What if someone shared something really exciting, life changing, or vital? What if I miss it? Gasp..... (so dumb)
5. GPS. I can't go anywhere within 15 miles without it. Give me a map? Might as well give me a socket wrench or a clarinet. #clueless
6. The Real Housewives. All of them. Ive been an addict of this show for years. It's rotten and pointless and demeaning and negative and petty. Yet I can't break the habit.....
Thinking about that things that I HAVE to have or do on a daily basis to make me feel grounded really puts things in perspective.
Why cant I be addicted to things that are more important or necessary?
Why cant I be addicted to reading my bible everyday or calling my mom everyday or visiting grandparents or taking vitamins or reading a book to my kids every night before they go to bed or saying the blessing before a meal or praying before I go to bed or vacuuming the carpet or washing my car?
Think it's time I start adding some items to my addiction list.
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