Do you realize what a gift you are to Daddy and I? YOU ARE A GIRL!! WOW! We never thought that would happen! You are soon to be born into a family (on the Rolfes side) with a lot of boys...all boys to be exact. You have a lot of responsibility on your hands! Feel free to teach these boys a thing or two about being a girl! I know that you will fit right in!!
When Mommy found out that you were a beating heart inside my tummy, I was terrified! I'm not going to lie to you, baby. I was shocked, scared, and didn't know what to do! Of course, your daddy played it "so cool" and just smiled at me with that knock-out smile of his. I cried. and cried. and cried. Not because I didn't want you, but because emotionally, mentally, and physically I wasn't quite ready for you just yet. But, God has His own plan, and He was ready for you, so I had 9 months to get used to the idea!
It took me a few months.....if you want me to be honest..... to fully accept that you were real. I still feel the need to be pinch or woken up! You are a dream come true, baby!
When we went to the Dr to find out if you were a GIRL or BOY I was so excited! I secretly was hopin, wishin', and prayin' that you were a little girl...... but I didn't want to get my hopes up too much. A little boy would have been fine. Honestly, it would have. (if you were a boy, your name would have been Tate William.) We adore your brother and would have welcomed another baby boy into the family with open arms! But, deep down..... a little girl was what my heart was aching for.
When I heard the nurse say, "I see a little girl", my hands immediately went up to my mouth in total shock! NO WAY!!! Seriously?!?!?! Ohmygoodness...... really?!?! For real?!?! Ohmy!!!!! A girl!!!!!
As soon as I knew you were a girl, I went shopping for the perfect bedroom for a princess!! I found some bedding that I loved and Nonnie bought it for you! Grandpa painted your room pink (or course) and I loved seeing him covered in pink paint!! You are going to sleep in your brothers old bed and use his old changing table and rocking chair! I hope you love it as much as he did! Aunt Jilly and Mommy put a lot of little touches on your bedroom. We hand-painted canvas's that matched the flowers in your blanket. We also painted little wooden butterflies that Aunt Jilly found at the thrift store and hung them on the wall. Jilly also found some candle holders that we hung up and we both painted the letters of your name (bright red!) and put them above your crib! Mommy's first baby blanket and rocking chair are in your room, along with one of my first baby dolls! Your closet if fully stocked with adorable dresses and your dresser drawers are over flowing with girly sleepers and onesies!! We are so ready to welcome you, sweetheart!!
You have been full of surprises, little girl, from day one! Starting with the intital shock that you were growing inside mommy, then finding out you were a GIRL, then finding out that my pregnancy was not going as smoothly as your brothers. A few concerns came up (my cervix was short....not that I expect you to understand what that is... google it when you are older) and I had to start seeing a specialist. To make a long story short, I had to have a little surgery (a cerclage..... again, google it) and then was put on bed rest. That was tough.... but it all was worth it when (after a few weeks) things with my cervix looked better and more normal and we all could breath a sign of relief.
I already have so many hopes and dreams for you, Cece. But, please don't feel pressured to accomplish all (if any) of these things! I know that you are your own person, with your own mind, and as you grow older you will form your own hopes and dreams..... but for now, just let Mom wish, ok?
~I want you to be come a professional ballerina and preform (one day) in a Broadway show. (Perferably "Cats", "Chicago", or "Rent")
~I want you to be sweet, cute, and polite your entire life! (which means: no swearing, no rolling your eyes, no sucking your teeth, no bare midriff's, no back-talk or sass, no piercings, no tattoos (at least where Dad and I can see.... what we don't know won't hurt us I guess), no mug shots, and no taking the Lord's name in vain.)
~ I would LOVE it if you were on the cheerleading squad or dance team.
~ I would equally LOVE it if you were the star (or at least a member) of some type of sport. Mainly because I NEVER was! (volleyball, basketball, track, golf, soccer, softball, ect..)
~ I want you to love to read.
~I want you to excel in school, but I will NEVER expect perfection.
~ I want you to help me cook and bake.
~I want you to love to shop, get your nails done, and accessorize!
~I want your faith in God to be visible to others.
~ I want you to have good friends who Dad and I trust, like, and approve of.
~ I want to be able to experiment with your hair.
~ I want you to never know a day when your ears were not pierced.
~I want to always be your mom first and your friend last.
~I want you to know that I will NEVER care how popular you are. Ever.
~ I want you to love sweets (like ice cream and cheese cake) like I do.
~I want you to go to prom...whether you have a date or not.
~ I want you to believe in Santa until...... forever.
~ I want you to look up to your brother, love him, respect him, and always be there for him.
~ I want you to always be a honest person and know that there is never anything you can't tell Dad and I.
~ I want you to love carrying purses, wearing high heels, and playing dress up!
~ I want you to always strive to make your dad and I proud.
Bottom line, baby, I want you to live an incredibly happy life and I promise to help you full fill all your dreams! (or at least try my VERY best!)
At this point in time (July 4th, 2012) you should be here in a few weeks. I am so ready for you! Your kitty cat suitcase is all packed and I am working on getting my bags packed. Nonnie and Grandma and grandpa are "on call" and will be here as soon as they know you are ready to be born!
Leo doesn't really understand what's about to happen or realize that his world is about to get turned upside down. He is currently 16 months old and is totally focused on giving up his bottle, controlling his temper, and playing with bubbles and reading books. He will come around..... I do think it's cool that he will never know what it's like to not have you around.
So for now, I (we) will just wait on you, sweetie. Whenever you are ready, we will be here to welcome you! I love you more than you will ever know and you will forever and ever be our little girl!
Love, Mommy
This is possibly one of the sweetest things I've ever read! Can't wait to meet your sweet little girl!
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