Sunday, December 22, 2013

New State of Mind...... By: Jess

24 years living in the state of Ohio.

8 years living in the state of South Carolina.

What a world of difference.

Living in another state than the once you were born and raised in takes a lot of getting used to. Its amazing how "everything" is different. The towns, the people, the smells, the food, the weather, the landscape, the attractions. It took me about 8 years to "get used" to living in the South, but I never really felt comfortable calling myself a true Southerner. But I really think I was getting there.....

So I'm back in the ole Buckeye State. I missed it. I really did. I missed all 4 seasons. I missed how beautiful fall really is and how magical snow is. I missed back country roads and seeing scarlet and gray everywhere. I missed Bob Evans and saying "pop". I missed school delays and the chatter around the gas pump about the next big snow storm.

Toby and I moved our family back to Ohio in September 2013. It happened REALLY fast, but when God gives you an opportunity, your stupid if you don't run with it! We had nothing… no jobs, no house, no plan. But we had our family. And that was comfort enough.

I'm thrilled to be back "home", even though I am still referring to SC as "home". Its confusing.  But, being surrounded by family and old friends again is seriously the best.

So what if we have to live with my in laws for several months.
So what if I don't have a full time job.
So what if Leo sleeps with us every now and then.
So what if my mother in law does all my laundry. (I better enjoy it now, right?!)
So what if the kids are getting spoiled beyond belief.
So what if all our possessions are in a storage truck.

It will all be worth it when we finish building our dream home and have our "lives" back.

Until then, I will endure. Cause it feels sooooooo good to be home again.

Wednesday, December 18, 2013

Do You Hear What I Hear? (By: Jess)

Ear Candling.

Best activity EVER!

If you haven't done it..... you are seriously missing out! My mom, sister, aunts, and I recently had our minds blown by this incredible activity!

You put the tip of the candle in your ear. Light the candle at the top and wait for it to burn down to the "stop" line. (about 10-15 min)

Take the tip of the candle out, unroll the candle, and marvel at the "stuff" that comes out of your ears. I can still picture everyone gathering around to see the "stuff" the candle pulled out! Like everyone looking into a magic crystal ball, awaiting to see their future...... amazing! I can still hear the "gasps" and gag reflexes of everyone around the table! I'm laughing as I type this....


Incredible.

Did I mention this has changed my life? Not only was this activity  a riot to experience with my family... but I can hear 1,000 better! Who knew that I had SO MUCH "stuff" in my ears! Seriously... the Q-tip is useless.

Even my Aunt Tracey, who swore her ears were "spotless", was mesmerized by the amount of "stuff" that emerged from her ears! (she was, by the way, the "winner" of the night!)

I cant wait to get my hands on Toby's ears! He has no idea what is coming!! bahahahah!

Try it…. then thank me for changing your life.




Friday, December 13, 2013

Extended Leave....... By: Jess

So...... Its been awhile.  Since June. I know, I know.... such a slacker! But, I have my reasons. I seriously think Im the only one who really cares.

Anywho.. it feels good to be back. Sooooooo much has happened since the summer, I dont even know where to start! So much in fact, that I dont even know if I will waste my time talking about it all. I may save that info for some future posts.

Let me just say this.... there honestly hasnt been (1) day that this blog has not been on my mind. I know Ive mentioned it before, but sticking to this blog is important to me. I dont want it to be something I started and then let die. Its not a huge priority in my life (obviously) bu I still want to make time for it nonetheles. (like ice cream and cleaning out ear wax)

In order to help me organize all the clutter in my brain, here is a quick list of future posts to come..... hopefully....eventually.....soon....

1. New State of Mind (SC to OH)
2. Winner Winner Chicken Dinner!
3. Rosie
4. Beauty and the Beast (Leo and Cece update)
5. Hi! I'm Jessica. Nice to met you. (things Im still learning about myself) 
6. Friday Nite Dinners
7. June 21, 2014
8. Forever Home
9. My life as a so-called Athlete
10. 33 year old Brain
11. Christmas 2013 (What I want and what Im soooo excited to give!)

There are some of the thoughts off the tip top of my head.

I read a quote recently that said this....

"Life is too short to spend it at war with yourelf"

It meant something to me.

Im tired of beating myself up....mentally....I have actually never really thrown a punch..... about all the stuff I want to do, but dont do.

 I think to myself, "I really should have done that" and then throw myself under a bus because I didnt do it.

And then think about my laziness for days.

 And regret blowing it off.

  This blog is one of those things. So, starting now.... Im gonna make time. Scheduled time? Prolly not. Daily time? Doubt it. But....just a little of my time, whenever its available. That's a start.

Wednesday, June 12, 2013

The Things You Do. (By: Jessica)

Leo.... You are 2 years old
Ceceilia...... You are 10 months old

You two make me smile so hard, my cheeks hurt.

You make me rush home from wherever I am to see what adorable thing you will do next.

You make me want to be a better person.

Your presence in my life has changed me in ways I would have never imagined.

You are THE CUTEST children on earth. This I know is true.

If I did not give birth to both of you, I would question if I was really your mother. You seem "too perfect" to be mine.

Here is a list of all the things you both are doing (currently) that makes me slap my knee, giggle out loud, snort a little, want to squeeze you a little too hard, and ask God "what in the world I did to deserve you...."

I never want to forget.......

Leo

Singing
Eerie looks
Hugs
Fish lip kisses
Pretending to be a baby
The way you say (pronounce) words like....boat, I love you, poop, mama, awe, Mickey, choo choo, bad, Cece, more, two, shoes, bye bye, high, eyes, bowl, uh-huh,
Running with your legs flailing
Sighing
your blanket with the blue elephants
Not easily entertained
Your belly laugh, excited laugh, nervous laugh, apologetic laugh, silly laugh
Infatuation with golf. ("Ball")
When you get mad
Sweeping
Your dance moves
Gasping and pointing.....at EVERYTHING


Cece

Screaming
Constant smile
Easy to fall asleep
Using your pointer finger
pulling up and standing
crawling fast
kisses
making the "muah" sound when you give open mouth kisses
your cute little wave
Curiosity
Holding your bottle
Arching your back when you get in your car seat
always barefoot
dresses everyday
Your blanket with the pink elephants
Blondie
sparkling eyes
easily entertained
Infatuation with your brother
splashing in the tub
toothless

I want to hold on to these traits of yours forever, which is why I am documenting them now. I know in 3, 6, 9, 15 years I will have forgotten these small details and they will have been replaced with even more traits will want to hold on to.

But for now, I am going to focus on these bits of happiness you give me. Tomorrow, and the next day, and the next, and the next.......will soon be filled with even more.

Will my brain hold them all??






Thursday, May 30, 2013

Summer 2013 plans (By: Jess)

Last day of school is tomorrow.  Sccccchooooools out for summer.
Summer va-ca will officially start tomorrow at 3pm! 

Here is a list of stuff I want/have to/plan to/hope to accomplish. (anything that is marked with an * is something I am BOUND AND DETERMINED to make happen!!)

(Please sing the song "Summertime" by Will Smith in your head while reading the list below.)
  • Family Beach vacation to Ocean Isle Beach, June
  • Anniversary date with hubby *
  • Class in Spartenburg for a week
  • go to the dentist
  • New employee orientation for Greenville Co. Schools
  • Move stuff into my new classroom/set up new classroom
  • Becca and family coming to visit
  • Jewelry party
  • (2) consignment sales *
  • Mom coming for a visit
  • Cece's 1st birthday tea party
  • I turn 33
  • Fathers Day
  • Finish Leo's quilt *
  • Take kids to daycare 2/x a week so I can have ME time *
  • Take kids to pool, park, story time, YMCA *
  • Continue to run * 
  • Have pool days with Jenn *
  • Play dates
  • Finish no sew roman shade *
  • Make crate seats for classroom *
  • Christmas in July party
  • Pontoon rental with friends
  • yard sales
  • lunch dates
  • take kids to children's museum, zoo, GA aquarium * 
  • Birthday beach weekend with hubby *
  • Continue medifast plan *
  • Leo big boy bed?
  • Planning with fellow 7th grade ELA teachers
  • school shopping for ME!
  • go to the movies
I hope to get all this accomplished and maybe more! But, I know summer will FLY by and will be over before I know it! My main priorities will be to do fun things with my kids, take time to relax and make time for myself, and continue eating well and exercising. We will see.......

Wednesday, May 29, 2013

Hey! It's OK..... (By: Jess)

I got the idea for this topic from this blog.... I read it! I follow it! I love it!

http://whisperingwriter.blogspot.com/2013/05/hey-its-okay-tuesday_28.html

Hey! It's OK......

that I haven't had a pedicure since...... no idea.

that we are going to the beach for a week on Saturday..... and the kids are ALREADY PACKED.

that my kids will be wearing paper bags to daycare the rest of the week.

that I drive a van.

that I have NO LESSON PLANS for the last week of school.

that when Leo woke up 2x's last night I pretended to be asleep. (Sorry, Babe)

to have a vanilla vodka and dt. root beer every evening every now and then on the back porch.

to wear a long skirt/dress because I haven't shaved my legs.

to use a bath towel more than twice.

to ignore your child, while he says "mama, mama, mama, mama, mama, mama" over and over and over, just so you can keep hearing your name on his sweet voice.

to brush crumbs on the kitchen floor

take an "airplane shower"

to think one thing, but say the exact opposite

to miss relationships

be jealous



30 Things I Want My Kids To Know (By:Jessica)



  1. I have a great sense of humor
  2.  I hate bullies
  3. I'm not good at sports
  4. I'm a morning person
  5. I love dessert
  6.  I like to cook
  7. I hate to clean
  8. I'm a terrible liar
  9. I never got straight "A"'s
  10.  I'm terrible at Math
  11.  I love traditions
  12. I have worn glasses since Kindergarten and contacts since 5th grade
  13. Smiling is my favorite
  14. I like reality TV
  15. I like anything historical
  16. I LOVE my job and career choice
  17. I like to "mean what I say" and "say what I mean"  
  18. I do not cry easily
  19. I aim to please
  20. Family vacations are a must!
2. Describe 3 legitimate fears you have .
         1. Setting a goal and not reaching it.
         2. Death of a loved one
         3. Not raising responsible, respectable, God loving kids
 
3. Describe your relationship with your spouse.
 
I believe my husband was born....for me. The day I met him I was immediately jealous of the girl that was one day going to be his wife. Toby and I's relationship is "ours". We know what works and what doesn't. We love each other dearly and passionately. We fight like brother and sister. We are best friend and each other's biggest competition. We are there for each other....for anything. No matter how big or small. We share. No one works harder than the other...and if someone is pulling more weight, the other will soon find out about it. We are a quite couple and a loving couple. We like to hold hands and hug each other randomly. There are things that Toby does and things about his personality that bother me and that I have to pray extra hard for the patience to deal with. Toby does that same with me. We are not a perfect couple....by far. We fight. We get attitudes. We make faces and roll our eyes. We go to bed angry. But, divorce will never be an option. We love each other...this much is true. I wouldn't be happy without him. And I'm pretty sure he wouldn't be happy without me.
 
4. List 10 things you would tell your 16 year-old self, if you could.

  • Being popular is sooooo not as important as you think it is
  • The people who you want to be your friends, are not really as cool as you think they are
  • The boy who doesn't want to go out with you will regret it in the future
  • Small ta-ta's are OK
  • Try a little harder in school..... people have no idea how smart you really are.
  • Smoking is not as cool as  you think it is.
  • Play a sport... you will surprise yourself.
  • Spend more time with your Dad, he won't be here forever.
  •  Stop embarrassing yourself.
  • The friends you have now will be your "forever friends".
 
5. What are the 5 things that make you most happy right now?
  • Leo
  • Cece
  • Toby
  • Gertie
  • The life God gave me
6. If you could have three wishes, what would you wish for?
  • Unlimited funds. Things would just be easier.
  • The "perfect" career
  • Lies were non-existent
7. What is your dream job, and why?

I would love to be a professor in the education department at a college or university. I want to "teach teachers".
 
8. What are 5 passions you have?
 
  • My family
  • Teaching
  • Being Healthy
  • God/my Christianity
  • Friendships 
9. List 10 people who have influenced you and describe how.
 
  •  My Husband- keeps me working to always want him to be proud of me
  •  My Dad- Taught me how to be a good worker
  •  My sister- acceptance
  •  Lindsey- drives me to be a strong Christian woman
  •  Maria- drives me to try new things, never stop learning, and that "anyone can do anything for a year."
  •  Melanie- Got me through college 
  •  Leo/Cece- to be the best role model I can be
  •  Laura, Jayme, Kelly, Angie- True friendship 
  •  Katie- How to really laugh
  • My Mother-in-Law- patience
10. Describe your most embarrassing moment.

When I asked someone if they were "expecting" and they were not.
 
11. Describe 10 pet peeves you have.
 
  •  Lying
  •  Laziness
  • Compliment fishing
  • grumpiness
  • overly dramatic
  • overly confident
  • know-it-all attitude
  •  selfish
  •  bad grammar/cursing
  •  Complaining
12. Describe a typical day in your current life.

Alarm goes off. Hit snooze a few times. Get up. Go potty/check FB. Put in contacts. Brush teeth. Take medicine. Get in shower. Wash. Get out of shower. Dry off/put hair in towel. Put on make-up. Go to kitchen, make lunch, Gertie's breakfast, clean up dishes, gt water jug ready, eat breakfast, make coffee. Get up Cece. Love on Cece. Dress Cece. (Toby's handles Leo) Dry hair. Straighten hair. Get dressed. Get kids in van. Make more coffee. Kiss dog goodbye. Kiss husband good bye. Pull out of driveway. Drop kids at daycare. Go to work. Work. Run after school. Pick kids up from daycare. Go home. Feed kids. Feed dog. Feed myself. Bathe kids. Jammies. Feed Cece cereal. Feed Cece bottle. Put Cece to bed. Lay on couch with Leo. Put Leo to bed. Clean kitchen/living room. DO laundry. breathe. put on PJs. Go to bed.
 
13. What’s the hardest part of growing up?

Learning things the hard way.
 
14. Describe 5 weaknesses and strengths you have.

Weaknesses
1. Saying "no"
2. Being gullible
3. Being too trusting.
4. Math
5. dessert

Strengths
1. Writing
2. Creativity
3. Being organized
4. Teaching
5. Humor
 
15. Describe when you knew your spouse was the one.

When I tried to break off our first date.... he refused to let me out of it.
 
16. What are your 5 greatest accomplishments?
1. Leo
2. Cece
3. (3) college Degrees
4. Moving to a new state, completely alone, and surviving.
5. Teacher of the Year
 
17. What is the thing you most wish you were great at?

Singing.
 
18. What do you think your spouse loves most about you?

Easy going personality
 
19. How did you feel the moment you became a parent?

koamkritkwmflsla,zoqowmsmcxitlwdmslf (a mixture of about 1,000 emotions)
 
20. Describe 3 significant memories from your childhood.

1. Spending time with my grandparents in FL
2. Spending time at the Lake
3. Neighborhood friends, playing outside.
 
21. Describe your relationship with your parents.

If my Dad had not died so early in life I think him and I would have had an amazing relationship. He was very much like me. I just didn't have enough time with him. My mother and I's relationship is what it is. She loves me, I know this. I love her, she knows this. But...... we are different.
 
22. Where do you see yourself in 5 years? 10 years? 15 years?

5- Finished with my 2nd masters
10- Still teaching in Greenville, Leo and Cece attending school together
15- still teaching in Greenville, watching Leo and Cece grow up, happier than ever!
 
23. What’s your favorite holiday and why?

Easter. I love the season and the reason!
 
24. What’s your favorite and least favorite thing about parenthood?

Favorite- Unconditional Love

Least Favorite- Constant judgement of others
 
25. If you could have dinner with anyone in history, who would it be and what would you eat?

Woman who lived during the Civil War. I would have her cook for me.
 
26. What popular notion do you think the world has most wrong?

Teachers have the summer's off.
 
27. What is your favorite part of your body and why?

My smile. It says a lot.... it also hides a lot.
 
28. What’s your favorite quality in your spouse?

Dedication
 
29. What are your hopes and dreams for your prosperity?

To be happy and comfortable and not struggle
 
30. List 10 things you would hope to be remembered for.
 
  1. Strong Christian
  2. Inspiring
  3. Good teacher
  4. Helpful
  5. Friend
  6. Happy
  7. Funny
  8. Knows how to have a good time
  9. Hard worker
  10. Determined

Friday, May 24, 2013

Our day at the fair. (By: Jess)

Dear Leo,

Today you and mom spent the afternoon together. I don't really know how much fun you had or if you will even remember it..... But it left a lasting impression on me. I am in awe of you, buddy. 

Let me first explain where we went. We went to the Ware Shoals Catfish Festival. Mom works at a school, in a town called Ware Shoals, and every summer they have a big festival. Its a big deal. A really big deal. I have worked in in this little sleepy town for the past 8 years and I firmly believe that God himself lead me here. This place changed my life and I am so glad that you were able to be be apart of it for the first 2 years of your life. This is my (our) last year in Ware Shoals, as Mom is taking a new teaching job closer to our house. It will be so much easier on all of us, but it still hurts my heart to say "good -bye". You probably wont ever remember this town or the infamous "Catfish", but I can assure you I will.

All day I was so excited to take you to ride rides! I was nervous too, because you have never really ridden rides before and I wasn't exactly sure how you'd take it. You can be a little questionable sometimes. As soon as school was out, I changed clothes. I needed to be in comfortable clothes.... shorts, t-shirt, and tennis shoes..... because I was almost positive that sweat and a bit of running around would be involved. Chasing after you in a black pencil skirt and wedge heels would not be wise. At all.

I left school and headed to the local ATM. I knew it was gonna cost your dad us at least $40 to make this activity worth it. Dad ain't seen nothin' yet......

I left the ATM, with smoke coming off my debit card, and headed to daycare school to pick you and Cece up. I got you both loaded up in the car van and we headed to Miss Wendy's to drop off Cece. You threw a massive fit when you realized that Cece was going to Miss Wendy's and you were not. You had big ole tears rolling down your face and kept pointing out the window. You didn't settle down until you saw that merry-go-round.

When we got out, we went over to get matching ride bracelets. I got mine on and then I held your little arm in the window and the nice lady put a hot pink bracelet on your chubby wrist. You thought that was soooo cooool. So did I.

We did a few laps around the fair first... you were a little hesitant. I knew you would be... it always takes you a little bit to warm up to new and different situations. You kept pointing at everything and saying "Ohhhhh" and "Mama!". You walked a little, while I held your sweaty hand, but then you wanted me to carry you around, and I did.  Why not? Sooner than later you wont want me to carry you anymore anyway... might as well take advantage of the opportunity now.

Finally, you loosened up a bit and we rode the merry-go-round. You LOVE horses.... or as you call them "go-go's". (thanks to your grandpa and the Keenland Race Track!)  I set you on top of one of the "go-go's" and you wrapped your little hands around the pole and held on for dear life. I stood next to you and held on to your waist so you wouldn't fell off.

You were not so sure about this ride......

When the ride started up, a big GUSH of air from the hydraulics made a loud sound, and I could see the shiver of fear roll up your spine! It was a little humorous, but I held in my giggle. You looked at me, with an absolutely terrified face, and I said started reminding you that "it was gonna be OK" and "mommy is right here".

You didn't care and my words didn't sothe you like I had hoped. You lost total control. Oh well.... the ride kept right on merry-go-rounding and the carnvial music continued to play.

To my surprise (and yours) the merry-go-round went a tad fast. Like... making my hair blow and loose my balance a bit. You didn't like that either. That's when you screamed. And that's when I laughed. I remember thinking to myself, "DANG.... this thing is flyin!" Apparently the merry-go-round at Disney World and the merry-go-round at the Catfish festival are NOT the same quality.

Once the ride of terror was over several things were going on..... 1. my ears were ringing from your relentless screaming. 2. I was totally rocking a sweat mustache. 3. I had a giant bruise/lump on the back of my shin where I lost my balance and hit my leg on the foot rest of the "go-go" behind me. 4. I was looking for the nearest trashcan to barf.... I wasn't used to this "spinning feeling" while I was sober.

Side note regarding the merry-go-round: To the two women who were riding the merry-go-round and using the poles as stripper poles...... sick. I feel sorry for the child who was sitting in beteween you. Have some class. Moving on.....

After our tornado ride on the merry-go-round we continued to walk around some more, checking things out. You FINALLY warmed up to the choo-choo ride and the bumble bee ride.

Lets talk a minute about the choo-choo ride. You INSISTED that I ride this ride with you. You got in the little train car, I buckled you in, and you patted the seat next to you and said "mama?". I was screwed. I had to contort my body into a "c" shape and wedge myself between you and the edge of the seat. I felt like the picture below:















The carnie ride operator kept calling me "Mama" and winking at me. It was weird. We rode this ride..... 5 times. You loved it. It was worth it to see you steer the little steering wheel, beep the horn, and say "choo-choo" in your high-pitched voice. Oh... and my favorite part was when I asked you for a kiss. You puckered up your lips, and I leaned down and kissed you! I could have cried.

The too much colonge wearing, gum smacking, sweating, dirt under his fingernails, needs a haircut ride operator then asked me where your daddy was.

 I replied... "He's workin the late shift at the scrambler."

He nodded and said "I know how it is". 

He then unbuckled your seatbelt, picked you up and helped you out of the ride.

He called you "Little Man".

 It was at that moment  that I loved and appriecated your daddy even more than I did 5 minutes ago.

We rode and rode and rode and rode....... 3 different rides. Just going back and forth. Whenever we would get off a ride, the ride operator would say "see you in a little bit!".

You really wanted to go in the fun house, but you were not tall enough.

I know..... there is a height limit for the fun house? Yes...apparently there is. Maybe next year, buddy.

At some point we also played a game. I spent 5 dollars on a blow up spiderman doll. The game was a fishing game where "everyone is a winner".

By the look on your face, you felt like a loser.

You didn't even want to play.... but I felt like a complete bieotch walking past and ignoring the carnie game operator about 15 times. She made me feel like a rotton mom cause I wouldnt let you play, so I finally gave in to the peer pressure (I was never really good at deling with peer pressure....).  You stuck the fishing pole in a baby pool filled with a bunch of rubber ducks (who had seen better days) and pulled one out.

 "WINNER! WINNER! WE HAVE A WINNER!" was what the lady yelled into her microphone.

 It scared you and you looked at her and cried. I grabbed the spider man and left.

Then came back 2 minutes later and got you. Then left again.

Finally, after about 2 hrs of ride riding excitment, I decided it was time for us to leave. You did not agree. I tricked you by telling you there were "more rides over here". You believed me for about 5 minutes, but when you saw your carseat, I knew the jig was up.

 You were sad to say good bye to the fair... you waved and your lip trembled. I told you that we were going to get your sissy and see Miss Wendy and you seemed OK with that.

Overall... it was a great afternoon spent with you. A memory I will forever have. I love you so much, Leo Beck,that it hurts my heart.





Thursday, May 23, 2013

"S" emotions. By: Jessica

SO, I realize I haven't written anything lately. It's been bothering me a lot. I have been waiting for something to hit me in the face as far as topics go....... but it hasn't. I haven't felt inspired or motivated to write much of anything lately. Just a slump I guess. So.... I have a few minutes to kill and I am basically forcing myself to post ....... something. Anything. I don't want to abandon this blog. I love this blog. I want my kids to read it one day and see the dedication and time that I put into it. I want them to know another side of their mom. I want to be able to read old posts and remember certain stages in my life. I want to make time for this blog.... I need to make time for this blog.... I refuse to let this be something I started, put time into it for a few years, and just "let it go".  I want this to be something I can be proud of 10, 15, 20 years down the road.  So.... here goes......something.....


I'm currently struggling with some things.
  • Getting up in the morning. After a school trip to D.C., I am soooooo not caught up on my sleep and honestly don't know when I will ever be caught up!
  • Running......in the heat. I loved running during the fall and winter, but now that it's almost summer, running in this type of heat makes me want to barf.  Trying to talk the husband to letting me join a gym. Cross your fingers.  
  • Making plans to go home for my 15 yr HS class reunion. I can't decide how I want to get home, when I'm going to leave, what I'm going to do with the kids, ect...  I keep going back and forth and frankly, I'm annoying myself.

I'm currently sad about some things.
  • The recent killing of (2) teenagers in my hometown. Heartbreaking.
  • My relationship with my family.
  • My sister's struggles.
  • Leaving the school I have been teaching at for the past (8) years.
  • Trying very hard to please certain people and not being able to achieve that goal.
  • Oklahoma tornado's
  • Not being able to teach certain 7th graders next year
  • not being able to convince more people to try "medifast", cause I KNOW it will help.


I'm currently satisfied with some things.
  • My new way of eating.
  • My exercise plan.
  • My relationships.
  • My decision to teach at a new school.
  • Leo and Cece's daycare
  • New blush and eyeshadow I found
  • New perfume
  • My morning routine
  • My water intake

I'm currently surprised with some things.
  • My husband's sweetness. He's been bringing me coffee every morning! Just sweet.
  • The generosity of others
  • The bitterness, anger, and jealousy of others.
  • How I'm adjusting to teaching ELA next year
  • My decision to get a 2nd masters
  • My love for running
  • How fast days go when I'm NOT at school and the kids are at daycare

I'm currently shaken about some things.
  • The tradegy in my hometown
  • Toby's grandmother's recent illness
  • Memories of how my family treated me
  • My dad's death
  • Gertie having a seizure recently

I'm currently scared about some things.
  • Starting my 2nd Master's program
  • New job in the fall
  • New daycare in the fall
  • Christmas with my family, 2013

I'm currently snickering about some things.
  • Memories with my friend Katie
  • Inside jokes with my sister
  • Things Leo does
  • The way my husband spells things
  • Actions of 8th grade girls trying to get attention from 8th grade boys
  • Cece's scream
  • Kim Kardashian


I'm THAT....... (By: Jess)

I'm THAT mom who.....
- could never handle being a SAHM
- shops second-hand for clothes
- gives her kids too many toys
- doesn't feel guilty  feels guilty about giving 2 year old McDonalds, or CHick-fil-a
- uses TV as a babysitter
- Loves her kids so much it scares me
- gives toys, clothes, and other items away as soon as they become useless. 
- hates a snotty nose/dirty face
-has a routine
- is obsessed with cleaning out my kids ears and trimming their fingernails
- Who never thinks she is never  doing enough
- gets very bored, very easily when playing with my kids
- Loves family outings
- Gets embarrassed and feels judged when my kids cry in public
- Didn't breastfeed
-uses t-shirts as a Kleenex
- looks forward to (kids) bedtime
- Keeps memorabilia
-spanks when necessary
- Keeps baby books up to date
- Does the best I can
-wants no one to be mean to my kids....ever
-is always questioning myself
- talks baby-talk to much
- puts kids picts on FB to much

I'm THAT wife who....
- hates to clean
- does all the cooking/shopping
- keeps up with appointments
- does not handle finances
- Always tries to impress the hubs
- Still loves dates
- Goes to bed first
- encourages guys nights
- takes girls nights
- is a team player
- tries my best not to nag
- trusts entirely
- will never be an Ex
- should include God more
- is supportive
- thinks golfing is sexy
- doesn't work alone
- gets frustrated
- is terrified of my husband dying
- never has to drive, pack the car van, or mow the lawn

I'm THAT teacher who......
- multi-tasks all the time
- loves projects
- has a rubric for everything
- doesn't like white space on the walls
- want everything to have a purpose
- is very "real"
- is very sarcastic
- uses humor
- gets frustrated
- is expected to work miracles
- is overworked and underpaid
- loves her co-workers
- enjoys my job
- picks my battles
- Understands
- is creative
- gets bored easily
- who hates a test
- grades everything
- is not a genius and doesn't try to be
-is never thanked enough
- gets defensive
- talks loud
- plans ahead
- is a little annoying
- loves a snow day
- loves a Friday
- hates a Monday
- will always volunteer to chaperone a school trip
- will come early and stay late
- will not give 1,000 chances
- will tell the truth
- trips in class too much
- is STARVING at 10am and 3pm
- Supports school sports
- is scared of the future of education




Thursday, March 14, 2013

One.Whole.Day. (by: Jess)

Lately I have been daydreaming.

Daydreaming about what I would do if I had ONE WHOLE DAY all to myself.

If days were suddenly incredibly longer, and money was not an option, this is all I would do.......

 I would get a mani and pedi.
 I would go for a long, peaceful run.
I would go out to breakfast with my husband, lunch with my sister, and dinner with my girlfriends.
 I would make the no-sew Roman shade I have been wanting to make.
I would print off a bunch of pictures that I have been wanting to print and frame.
 I would take pictures of my back patio for the "deck guy".
 I would get Leo an Easter outfit.
 I would get the kids "Easter Bunny" gifts.
 I would clean out my closet.
 I would clean out my jewelry box.
 I would try a few new dessert recipes I have been wanting to try.
 I would sleep in and take a few naps.
 I would catch up on all my DVR shows.
 I would go to the mall.
I would get my eyebrows waxed.
 I would go goodwill shopping.
 I would go to panera bread, get a cup of chi tea, sit in the back with my laptop and work on blogs, online shopping, pintrest, and catch up on all my blog reading.
 I would finish my grocery list.
I would finish my class work for (2) classes I'm taking.
I would finish all the laundry in the house.
I would organize my Tupperware drawer.
I would take another nap.
I would go to the movies.
I would sit on my couch and watch a movie.
I would finish the baby quilt I started for Leo.... 2 years ago.

One can dream.......

Thursday, February 14, 2013

Currently.... (By: Jess)

Currently.....

OBSESSING OVER
The Half-Marathon I am training for. 

WORKING ON
Getting my Master's +30. (specifically for the pay raise)

THINKING ABOUT
Getting certified to be a guidance councelor or possibily enrolling in a program for a brand new career.

ANTICIPATING
Women's Church Conference with my sister
Leo's 2nd Birthday
Family picts
George Strait/Martina McBride Concert
Half Marathon/trip to Nashville
Family Beach Trip

PROCRASTINATING
Grading immigration essays

WISHING
Family members knew the truth

To-Do List (By: Jess)

As of recently, it seems that my "to-do list" is growing by the second! I have so many things I wanna do..... yet not the time to do them! I have so many things I wanna get done, I'm having a hard time keeping them all straight! Which is why I am writing a post based on my list......

1. Make "no-sew roman blinds" for my back patio door.
2. Get some hooks and shelves to hang on my wall in the kitchen to make a DYI "mud room".
3. Grocery shop.
4. Paint my nails.
5. Read Start reading at least (1) of the (6) books I have on my nightstand.
6. Get new running shoes.
7. Get new frames and print pictures for my mantle "re-do".
8. Work on my "plate wall"
9. Work on Leo's 2nd birthday book
10. Take pictures of back patio and email them to "the deck guy" to start making plans for a new back patio/deck.
11. Front door "welcome" craft
12. Schedule family pictures
13. Get Leo's 2nd yr picts taken
14. Start planning Leo's "Choo Choo" birthday party
15. Organize my 3-in-1 party.
16. Make The Pratts some food.
17. Get Cece's ears pierced.
18. Get bath toy holders
19. Go to the "nearly new" store that just opened in Greenville.
20. Go to Old Navy.

*I'm stopping at #20. There's more, but making that list was depressing, overwhelming, almost caused a mild panic attack, and totally made me want to chew off my left pinky finger.*

What I Wanted. (By: Jessica)

What I wanted:
To have a relaxing mini vacation with my husband in Las Vegas! To sleep in, eat good food, make a little money, drink some classy drinks, take my time getting ready, take a nap whenever I want, shop....

What really happened:
I got food poisoning and only had 24 hours to do all the above.

What I wanted:
To make 4 complete meals for my great friend, Kerri, who just had an adorable baby boy! I wanted to make her a soup, a freezable meal, and (2) meals that heat up nice. I also wanted to make her a plate of her favorite lemon cookies, Cinnamon pecans, and a batch of her husband's mother's oatmeal.

What really happened:
The baby is almost a month old..... and I have yet to bring them (1) stinkin meal. I'm such a a slacker and a dead beat friend.

What I wanted:
To make these really cute foam monogram cutouts for Leo and Cece's bedroom doors.

What really happened:
Foam boards are REALLY hard to cut using an exacto knife.

What I wanted:
To spend my Christmas money that I got from my mom and in-laws on random stuff for myself. Mani/pedi? New clothes? Girls night? Pintrest crafts? Home decor?

What really happened:
All my Christmas money is gone and none of the above was purchased. Which makes we wonder....where is it?

What I wanted:
To loose weight  like CrAzY when I took up running and be a skinnylilbiotch.

What happened:
I'm started in October.. could barely run 1 min without wanting to shoot myself in the face. Now.... I can run about 13 minutes without stopping once. I am up to run/walking 4 miles. I have completed 3 5K's and an registered for 2 more! I'm also planning on running in a half marathon at the end of April..... and I haven't.lost.one.pound.

What I wanted:
To have an enjoyable Christmas, at home with my family.

What really happened:
Lies were told, gossip was spread, tears were shed, hearts were broken, relationships changed drastically, trust was destroyed, feelings were hurt, backs were turned.  Not the "Holly Jolly Christmas" I had hoped for.

What I wanted:
My kids to call my dad, Grandpa.

What really happened:
They will never know him.

What I wanted:
To be more involved in my church and meet a lot of new people

What really happened:
I have no time to devote to it.

What I wanted:
To look like a "hot mom" walking the streets of the Las Vegas Strip in my trendy brown boots that I never get to wear back home cause I never go anywhere to wear them.

What really happened:
I was in severe pain after 3 blocks and produced a blister the size of a coaster.

What I wanted:
To have plenty of room and space for the kids to spread out and for extra stuff to be stored.

What really happened:
I drive a van.

What I wanted:
To hang pretty Christmas ornaments from the arches in my kitchen, over my sink, with fishing line.

What happened:
Broken glass. Everywhere.

What I wanted:
I new bathrobe for Christmas. Any color (except white). Any style (except long)

What really happened:
I got a new bath robe for Christmas from my husband. A long, white one.

What I wanted:
To wear REAL makeup that will make my face look flawless/airbrushed. Not the cheap stuff I normally buy from Wal-Mart.

What Happened:
My face broke out like a 7th graders.

Friday, February 1, 2013

Midweek Confessions #14 (By: Jess)

It's been awhile since I have come clean about some stuff....

1. I bought clothes (for myself) online for the FIRST TIME EVER last week. It was not an epic failure. The shirts I ordered on clearance from JCP actually fit. Win!

2. I successfully took care of 2 sick, crying, whiny, needy babies by myself for 8 hours.... and no one got hurt! Win Win!

3. I have been running 3 days a week as much as I can since October. I am currently up to 4 miles and have not lost one.single.pound. Win?

4. It is a race occurrence when I am able to run 3 days a week.....it seems like something always happens that prevents me from doing it. Weather, kids, appointments, ect.......  Someone recently told me that I "really should try to run 4 days a week". Bahahaha.

5. My brother-in-law's girlfriend begged convinced peer pressured talked me into invited me to join her and my BIL in running in a.....wait for it..... HALF MARATHON at the end of April. I said yes. (stop laughing)

6. I finally know how to use itunes and could easily bankrupt our family.

7. I don't think my husband thinks I will really go through with the half marathon.

8. My skin has been breaking out sooooooo bad lately. I feel like I'm back in 6th grade. Ugh.

9. My sister recently moved to SC and her new address is "our bonus room". Having her here has done amazing things for my happiness!

10. I don't remember the last time I read a book. I miss it.

11. My teeth are suddenly sensitive.

12. I have been meaning to paint my nails with this new nail polish my sister got me for Christmas....since Christmas. I just can't find the time to do it. That's re-dic.

13. I'm wearing a bracelet today that my friend, Jayme, got me in when I was in college. It's black, silver, and gray. It goes with everything and I adore it.

14.  I recently starting taking green coffee extract. We will see if it's all that it's hyped up to be. Dr. Oz better be right.....

15. It's insane how much I look forward to laying in bed at night...........pinning.  (insane or sad?)

16. Sometimes Leo can be a typically two-year old, testing my nerves and pushing it to the limit...but dang, I love that kid.

17. I'm debating the spelling of Cece's name. It is currently spelled "Ceceilia". My sister insisted we spell it this way. But, the most common way of spelling it is "Cecelia". She is 5 months old and already her name gets spelled wrong all the time. What to do, what to do.....

18. I was told recently that I needed to buy new clothes cause the ones I am wearing are too big for me. I took it as a compliment.

19. I have a constant fear that I take our babysitter for advantage and she will think I'm a bad mom. I feel like I ask her all the time for extra help... "Can you keep the kids while I go for a quick run?" "Can you keep the kids while I go to the mall and get a few things?" "Can you keep the kids so I can get my hair cut?" "Can you keep the kids so I can go to class?" "Can you keep the kids so I can pack?" "Can you keep the kids so Toby and I can go on a date?"  I feel like I'm always trying to pawn my spawn off on her..... but, DANG, sometimes I just gotta get shiz done and its a heck of a lot easier kid-free. Who hears me?

20. I'm starting to realize that getting my PhD is going to be damn near impossible...... and that makes me want to do it even more.

Saturday, January 19, 2013

What Would You Do? (By: Jessica)

I have a situation for you..... I've got this friend who doesn't know what to do about a situation she has found herself in.... Put yourself in her spot....

Someone you know has just tried to commit suicide.

They tried to cut their wrists with a steak knife.

(They were not successful..... And honestly it was more like " let me hold this knife to my wrist, cry and sob, threaten to do it, but never pressed down" type of thing.)

The reason for wanting to die?

You.

They blamed it on you.

They threaten to kill themselves because "they can't take the way you treat them anymore".

They told lots of people that you are the reason they want to die.

Everyone now looks at you in disgust and hate. They think you are a bad person, have said bad things about you and to you, and have totally turned on you.

You are confused, hurt, angry, shocked, insulted, worried, bitter, and sad.

You are responsible for someones suicide attempt. You COULD HAVE been the cause of someones death.

You asked this person countless time to explain their reasons. You have asked them to please explain to you how you are the reason for this? What have you done (specifically) to them that has hurt them this much?

They have nothing to say.

Now.....after all the drama of trying to kill themselves, blaming it on you, spreading rumors and lies, portraying you in a terrible, shameful light...... They are acting as if nothing ever happened and are wondering why you are not answering their calls.

What would you do?

Seriously. I want to know. Inbox me, comment, Fb me, whatever.

My friend is beside herself and would appreciate any advise on the situation.




Thursday, January 17, 2013

Since when did failure become an option? (By: Jessica)

I'm feeling so disappointed today.

 I'm disappointed in my students.

I experienced a situation today that I have never experienced before.

Here is the reason for my disappointment....

I had 3 students...who were currently failing my class. They were BARELY failing, which means they were VERY CLOSE to passing.

Very close, like 1 or 2 percentage points away from passing.

 I told them this.... "If you make up ONE assignment that you missed, you will end the grading period with a passing grade". Nothing extremely demanding. Nothing hard or confusing or stressful. Just simple..... complete the work you are missing and pass.

 Easy Peasy, right?

Yeah...that's what I thought.

 But I was wrong.

None of them completed their assignment.
None of them seemed to care that they were going to FAIL the nine weeks.
None of them seemed to care that if they completed just ONE ASSIGNMENT, they would pass.

I was so let down.

I suddenly realized that failing was OK with them. Failing was acceptable to them. Failing wasn't a big deal. The past 63 days was a complete and total waste of time/work/effort for them...because they failed anyway.

It was/is so depressing. Don't you think? It's amazing how much "school" has changed from when I was in Jr. High.

If I FAILED a class.... not a test, not a project, not a homework assignment..... an ENTIRE CLASS, I would have been DEVASTATED!!  My heart would have been broken and my confidence shattered. My parents would have FLIPPED OUT on me and the guilt I would have felt by letting them down would have almost killed me. Let's not even talk about the trouble I would have been in and the amount of things that would have been taken away from me.

But, I guess it's not like that anymore.

 It breaks my heart how acceptable failure is today. How "OK" it is to fail.

The phrase "I don't care" couldn't be more true.

I know that not ALL of today's youth has this mentality. I know a good amount of kids who impress me everyday. I know some kids who would DIE if they failed a test.... let alone a class. I know some kids who would have jumped at the opportunity to pass the class if they had the chance. I know some kids who would be willing to do hours and hours of extra credit if it meant they would pass and not fail.

The sad part is, is that I honestly only know SOME kids like this. Not a lot.

I guess these feelings just come with the job. I know that I can't "change the world" or I can't FORCE anyone to care about anything. But...dang.... wish they would just try sometimes. 

I guess all I can do... outside of all the things I already do daily for my students ... is to just pray for them.

Pray that God helps lead them in the right directions.
Pray that this stage in their life is just an "awkward stage" and eventually they will come around and get serious about their education.
I'm gonna pray that God gives them more self confidence and self worth and  helps them to realize that it's not OK to fail.....at anything. Especially without effort.

 I'll pray......

A Major Award (By: Jessica)

I have won a major award.

This moment in my life reminds me of the scene from "A Christmas Story" when Ralphie's dad win's the leg lamp. 

"Tonight, tonight, it's comin tonight, hot damn tonight!"
"Well, it's a major award! I won it!"

A dear friend, loyal fellow blogger, and one hell of a hero...... Ashley Quarles.... has nominated me for a Liebster Award!!

This is an award passed around the blogging community for upcoming bloggers with less than 200 followers and/or for someone that deserves some recognition for their blogging.

I honestly couldn't be more honored. Being friends with Ashley is an honor in and of itself.... but this is just an extra added bonus! Thank-you, Ashley, for doing this! It means more than you know!! xoxo

Read about Ashely and her story HERE. She has changed my life and the way I look at......EVERYTHING. I think about her every. single. day. I met Ashley through my friend, Jennifer. Ashley and Jennifer are sisters. I have known Ashley ever since I moved to SC...about 8 years now. Every year we seem to grow closer and find out more about each other. I love hanging out with her, having dinner dates with her, going to movies with her, reading her blogs, and being her friend. I feel extremely blessed to know Ashley... she probably has no idea how much she has taught me over the years or how much I think about her and pray for her. I firmly believe that God puts specific people in your life. She was placed in my life by Him. No question.


Now..... about this major award of mine......

THE (bendable) RULES:
-I must pass this award on to others who I feel are deserving.
- Each person tagged must post 11 things about themselves.
- They must also answer the 11 questions the tagger has set for them.
- They must then choose 11 bloggers to tag & award with the Liebster award (nominees must have less than 200 followers). These lucky bloggers must be told in a comment on their blog.
- They must create 11 more questions to ask bloggers they have decided to tag

Ready? Go!


11 Things about Me:
1. My career goal is to teach at a college or university. My dream is to one day "teach teachers".
2. I HATE doing things over.
3. I go to bed every night by 8pm! 9pm at the LATEST!
4. I hate to clean, but I'm a great "picker-upper"
5. I love to cook!
6. I am currently training to walk/run a half marathon. I'm still not convinced I can do it.
7. I'm addicted to coffee
8. I plan things months in advance so I have things to look forward to.
9. I'm always early or right on time. Never Hardly ever  late.
10. I could NEVER be a stay-at-home-mom...... and sometimes I feel guilty about that.
11. I have a twin sister
12. I try to make my husband proud of me....constantly.


Questions from Ashley:
1. Given the opportunity to tell someone who is no longer in your life something, what would it be?
I would like to tell my Dad how much I loved and admired him. I want to tell him that he was an amazing father. I want to tell him "thank you" for all he did for me and our family. I want to tell him how much I miss him and how much I miss doing things with him. I want to tell him that I have so many memories of him and I will always treasure them. I want to tell him how much as changed since he died.
2. Who is your favorite singer/band?
Rascal Flatts
3. What about your favorite book?
"Heaven is for Real"
4. What is your dream job?
Education Professor at a University
5. In 3 sentences (or less) tell me about yourself.
I am a 32 year old mother, wife, sister, daughter, teacher, friend, and Christian. My life is busy, organized, full of love and silliness, but not perfect. I strive everyday to keep my head above water and thank God everyday for not letting me drown.
6. What is your biggest pet peeve?
Laziness
7. Do you prefer spring, summer, fall or winter?
Fall!
8. What's the weather like where you are?
SC weather is the best! Currently is it January and 50 degrees. It's rainy, but I can deal with that.... as long as the sun shines SOON!
9. Do you have any resolutions for 2013? If so, what are some of them?
Resolutions? No. Goals... yes! Read HERE.
10. What is your favorite thing to drink?
Safe- Vanilla Coke Zero
Unsafe- Red wine, vanilla vodka and root beer, dirty martini's with extra dirt, Blue moon with an orange slice.
11. What is your favorite type of blog?
Honest. Real. Down to earth. One I can relate to.

Now the questions for MY blog nominees:
1. What is the purpose of your blog?
2. What is your biggest fear?
3. What is your proudest moment?
4. What is your least proudest moment?
5. What do you want to improve in your life?
6. Describe your relationship with your parents.
7.  How do you "de-stress"?
8. Talk about your "best friend"
9. Finish this sentence..."You would NEVER believe this, but this one time I........."
10. Who do you miss the most?
11. On a scale of 1-10, how happy are you in your career and why. (10 being THRILLED!)
 
I pass this major award on to the following fellow bloggers.......
 
* I'm supposed to nominate 11 people. But, I don't follow 11 blogs with less than 200 followers. Thank goodness these rules are "bendable"!*

 






Thursday, January 10, 2013

Faithful Years (By: Jessica)

2012....... what a year.

Full of ups and downs.
Full of trial and error.
Full of smiles, frowns, tears of happiness, tears of anger, unexpected surprises, unexpected heartbreaks, new ways of thinking, new address, and  everything else in between.

If I've learned anything from 2012 it is this.......

 Have faith.

I spent the first half of 2013 terrified, scared, confused, unsure, not confident , and anxious. I had just found out I was expecting another baby and the thought of that scared me to death!

But, I had a little faith to spare and God took care of it for me. Cece is perfect and I don't remember what life used to be like without her.

I also spent a lot of 2013......physically miserable. I. hate. being. pregnant. I'm not one of those people who "loves being with child". Besides the fact that I couldn't drink alcohol for 9 months, I also couldn't move without pain, or sleep soundly, or sit down in comfort......ever. This pregnancy was also more difficult that last time because I was forced to chases after a toddling toddler the whole time. Not easy. I think I prayed 2,532 times a day to God to please just "be with me". And he was. Glad I had faith.

2013 was a year of change for me. We moved to a new home. We added another person to our family. My body went through more changes than I ever imagined. My relationships with certain people changed... for the better and worse. My outlook on my career changed. After looking back on all the change I have experienced in 2012, I have come to the conclusion that.......WITH A LITTLE FAITH,  CHANGE IS GOOD.

Overall, 2013 was good to me. I'm happy, healthy, and alive. My family is happy, healthy, and alive. I can't complain.

I'm excited about 2013.... as I am about all new years. I'm not the "new year resolution making type", but I do like to set goals for the new year. Some time's I achieve them, sometimes not. But if you don't have a goal...what's the point of....... anything?

Anyway- here are some goals that I hope to accomplish this year and with a little faith, I hope to do just that.

1. Tuck some graduate hours under my belt in order to complete my Master's +30
2. Participate in a half-marathon ("participate", not "run".)
3. Join the YMCA
4. Make some extra money
5. Make my blog into a book
6. Schedule a family photo session
7. Participate in more 5k's
8. Eat cleaner
9. Become more involved in my church
10. Spend more time with the hubby
11. Let my hair grow
12. Read more books
13. Continue "pinning" and experimenting
14. Run 3 days a week
15. Pay more attention to my wardrobe
16. Gossip less
17. Stop caring (so much) about what others think
18. Wear my Christianity on my sleeve
19. Coupon more
20. Pray more
21. Consider a PhD (wince)